happy or sad
joy or mourning
pitiful or compassionate
shallow or pensive
partaking or contempt
my face cannot show what’s inside
for i don’t know
heaving to and fro
like a boat with no anchor
no captain
no steersman
no navigator
i may be manic or perhaps schizophrenic
or am i just stupid
not able to see what’s already there
not appreciating the blessings i have
the thin red line i once had blew away long ago
i have no connection
no direction
there’s nowhere
nothing
no one
no reason
no answer
no question
(5.12.4)